My precious friend left early this morning, so I have the rest of this time alone or at least until I depart at 11am to meditate on what I have learned and enjoy the last few moments before my day is full of airplane rides and airports.  I will be arriving home late tonight. I have never longed for home this intensely in all my memory except for when I was a young child.  So total days on water only 14 with 7 days re-feeding.  The crazy thing is, I felt better physically on water only.  The tissue issue activity didn't start acting up until I started eating high antioxidant foods.  It's a good thing, I know... we call it a healing crisis.  Truly a lil overboard on the "Crisis" it feels like a bunch of bees stinging you plus a toothache in your armpit.  Went on for a few days, I called out to Jesus one night and it just stopped and never returned to that severity again.  I embrace healing, but He knows what I can handle... He is so kind.  So a little recap on what has transpired in my body....
First couple of days your body has no glucose coming in to break down so it begins a process called gluconeogenesis. Your liver converts non-carbohydrate material like lactate, amino acids and fats into glucose.  Your body goes into battery safe mode and your basal metabolic rate becomes more efficient and uses less energy.  You may feel drained of energy, but I found this to change around day 3-4.  From Day 2-7 - ketosis has begun, the body starts to burn stored fat as its primary power source.  Day 8 to 15 the body enters a healing mode. This healing process begins as your digestive system takes a rest from the common stressors and toxins it endures on a daily basis. As a result your body has fewer free radicals entering the mix and oxidative stress decreases.  Fasting also causes a stress that provides an added benefit. Its a mild stress comparable with the stress caused by exercise, which ultimately makes you stronger and your immune system more resilient.  I would feel this at night, my body was on a treadmill and I found it very hard to sleep.  But no matter how many interrupted hours I would always awake refreshed as if I slept all night.  I got most of that information from GLOBALHEALING.COM Re-feeding is an art, it is in stages.  You must prepare and do it correctly or you may find yourself miserable with a bloated belly that will not go away.  I have heard stories and went with the instructed re-feed schedule.  The experience here at TRUE NORTH was pretty basic - but I did meet lots of amazing people, took some beautiful walks and the Santa Rosa Memorial Cemetery was truly the best exercise along with its simple tranquility.  Having a friend with me proved a necessity. If she wouldn't, I would have burrowed in my room to  read & study.  She kept me engaged and in the sunshine, I needed that.

So many are here for so many reasons, weight loss is a big one but most are linked to heart disease and diabetes. Many are here for covid residual relief, some cancer, but all are seeking a reset.  A clean sweep if they can tame the emotional comfort food seeking beast.  I see the demons waiting in the wings, depression, guilt, fear, gluttony, loneliness, despair, anxiousness... all tied to a common emotional attachment.  A temporary fix to a long standing problem.  Could be generational or newly established.  We must always be aware that we are not at war against flesh and blood but against the principalities of darkness. Eph 6:12  Anything he can use to keep us down and under his control, he will do.  A bowl of ice-cream will work for some, to keep us  in our guilt and self loathing cycles, some it takes pornography, others even worse... but he knows and he will continue to bombard you with the next thing until you rip him out of your life - talons and all. Uproot his strong holds, dissect them, get them under a microscope, find out their origin, the more we know about his strong and weak holds on us, the more wise we become to his familiar tactics. I will say, I would be surprised if any of these attempted "stronghold studies" are not linked to some form of un-forgiveness.  

In Luke 10:19 He has given you authority-power to tread on serpents and scorpions and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing by any means shall hurt you.  Stand in your authority in Christ Jesus! DISSECT THE devil.... put him under the microscope - 
Only God can show you, Only Jesus can help you, stay in Him and there is no room for anyone else - stay close to Him and He will straighten your path, follow His most holy discernment and He will lead you into all things.  

One huge take away - I know I will not starve to death if there is no food to eat.  Jesus showed Himself faithful to be all I need.  He is my bread of life, He is the well that never runs dry.  He is all I need.  

I have been silent for many days..... needed the time to embrace rest and spend time with Him. I have learned to post when He leads me or it becomes expected or almost generated.  So I will post as He orders.
I am now on day 14 of my water only fast. Sleeping is pretty much interrupted, which is normal for fasters.  But no matter how choppy it is, I always wake up rested and ready to go.  I do have to keep my water intake up and that gets hard because water although it quenches, you begin to actually taste it and it gets a bit undesirable.  But it is imperative to force yourself to drink at the least 48 oz and at the most 120oz.  But closest to 120oz is truly best.  I hit 96oz pretty consistently unless I have a massage then I increase to 120oz.  the massage releases toxins and if you do not drink the max you will feel nauseas.   My energy level through out has stayed at a 7-8 and I have even been able to take daily walks.  They do not advise it but being the rebel that I am, I do.  I know I need it for sanity and health.  I have had no issue with weakness or energy.  They call me a professional faster and are amazed at how well I've adapted.  The encouragement is greatly appreciated.  It has been 14 days and we will begin re-feeding tomorrow.  It will begin with green juice -zucchini, cucumber, celery, spinach and a splash of apple. I will get four juices tomorrow to be each drank over 45 minutes with one more Monday morning,  I will then begin raw foods.  We are also not supposed to bathe for fear of passing out from the hot water, so they advise to sponge bathe.  Again, I am a rebel on that as well.... I sit in the shower and grab the hand held shower head and let it rain over my body.   The shower has become my prayer closet.  I pray in the spirit for some time and receive such comfort from my Savior.  It is my quiet time, and I must have that.  I have had no issue with any repercussions, so I have continued.

 I go to the courtyard on warm sunny days and enjoy visiting with fellow fasters.  God has scheduled some divine appointments - so far one dealing with a rare form of cancer, I spoke into him the words God gave me, one that "tried" to talk me out of my faith and into His, one that bore his soul and is now looking into Rhema Bible College, and one that is of a questionable religion, she listened to my healing journey of faith and was completely dumbfounded by my rock solid stance.  It was a tender moment.  

Here in California I find many live in fear of this "c" thing.  It has such a stronghold that the masks are strictly enforced for fear of being shutdown.   This causes some not to socialize much. But God, He shows me the ones He's placed on my path and I share my faith in however it manifests and He does the rest.  It's a beautiful thing, Gods sovereignty. 

Deuteronomy 11:18 “So commit yourselves wholeheartedly to these words of mine. Tie them to your hands and wear them on your forehead as reminders. 19 Teach them to your children. Talk about them when you are at home and when you are on the road, when you are going to bed and when you are getting up. 20 Write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates, 21 so that as long as the sky remains above the earth, you and your children may flourish in the land the Lord swore to give your ancestors.​

​Commit with your WHOLE HEART, if you want the full rewards God has planned for you.  I want a long life, countless blessings on my children, grandchildren, greats, great-greats, to a thousand generations.  But it begins with knowing Him, richly, intimately, to live in and honor His presence, allowing Him to be with you wherever you go.  You may think this is too much....well maybe for some...but for me it is my dream. I want to be so close to God that when I pass on when I've "lived well into my 90's" I just want to step right over into the deepest level of Glory - a familiar Glory.  My hope is that He will bless me with visions of that Glory this side of heaven. I believe the only way to attain that level of intimacy is giving Him all I have now.

 Ive learned from this abstinence of food, that His word is enough to sustain me.  So as I dine with Him, He feeds me with His word, His love, His promises, I could go on and on and I feed Him with my praises, thankfulness, adoration, sacrifices, my trust. This brings Him fullness of Joy, I believe it fills His belly to see His children reverencing Him, making time for Him in their day. He loves for His children to trust Him no matter the circumstance, what we feel or see - we have to trust Him.  Again we must know His promises to trust like this, there are thousands of them in His word, but it is up to us to pull them out and feast on them so they are within us.  Jesus - the manifested word of God can never be taken from us.  

In His presence I abide.

​The Holy Spirit woke me this morning with: 

“The absence of fear is the proof of His presence.”

Speak Jesus, Jesus, Jesus and all oppressive spirits must leave. It’s just one of His countless promises, but a huge one in this day & age. Know His word, know His power. No word, no power. 

It’s paramount for such a time as this to study His words, relish them, embrace them and obey them. 
Building up your FAITH weakens your fear. More FAITH less fear. More time with Him, more trust that He is who He says He is. That He’ll do what He says He’ll do. That His word is unequivocally true. 

Great rewards to those who seek Him with all that is within, because they will surely find Him. Seek Him daily - it must be more vital than that first cup of coffee. Do both ofcourse but don’t procrastinate, set a time apart - and spend some time with your savior. Think on what He has saved you from - then decide if He is worth your time. 

Didn't sleep great last night but I rested well and woke up feeling pretty normal on the 5th day here at True North.  I started my morning listening to The Garden by Kari Jobe and shared with Rita. We listened to a few more, then read devotionals and 2 chapters of fasting by Jentezen Franklin.  Definitely a spot on book.  I was beginning to write but Rita really wanted to go to the courtyard to get some sun. Very quickly there was a crowd of fellow fasters assembled around us.  Rita went for a walk and I stayed.  Each were asking about why they were here......it got to me and well..... Jesus was all up in it.  Shared my faith & my story.  I forget sometimes the wealth of information I've accrued on this journey but most of all the testament of Faith over fear. It is truly a blessing to share from my bounty with others, especially when they are truly interested and want to hear.  Those that have ears to hear, let them hear. Luke 8:9  This journey has been a long one, but what I have learned about physical, emotional and most of all spiritual health is priceless.  I was diagnosed in 2016, told a year to live if I didn't do anything, 5 years if I did everything they prescribed. I didn't like those odds so I went for a second opinion.  Pretty much the same - except to find after testing- chemo wouldn't work for me. So needless to say I am truly thankful I received a second opinion. They wouldn't do a lumpectomy without radiation and the radiation would be so intense it probably would do some damage to my heart. Some is to much, so after prayer and seeking His peace, I chose to continue the natural approach.  Well it has been four years more than a year, and I am still among the living, healthy, and living life with the " tissue issue".  Being here is another stepping stone - more hands on information and healing to my body.  

I am missing my family very much at this point.  I am shooting for 21 days water only if my body allows.... but I'll take less if Gods will for sure! The hunger is not the issue, it's being away from my loves and my grand loves that's the hard stuff! Having my time with Jesus is really all that keeps me afloat.... a true i lean, He leads moment.  

But to you who fear My name The SUN of Righteousness shall arise with healing in His wings; and you shall go out and grow fat like stall fed calves. Malachi 4:2

​Hold Gods name in reverence and honor and the Sun of Righteousness our Jesus, will heal you.... it all comes from honoring God. I honor Him with my trust, even when I have no clue what's going on. He knows and He is delighted with my blind faith. I know He is faithful to perform all that I ask.  He's a good Father, it's who He is and He's all I need.    Praise God from whom all blessing flow!

until we meet again my friends! 

Yesterday was spent in the courtyard, reading, writing and a pretty much uneventful as far as fasting discomfort. God did give me a divine appointment with a fellow faster.  He was a young man and very fit. He shared that he is healing a form of skin cancer.  I spoke Jesus to Him, I spoke truth to him and shared about the power in our words.  I told him, he would be just fine...and that He would live "well" into his 90's.  He thanked me for the wisdom and the words, he seemed to tear up a bit.  Blessed my heart and made my day quite meaningful.

 I have reached my full 4th day, amazing enough I have had no hunger pain.  Energy level is a little low but all in all I feel pretty normal.  Crazy, 4 days with only water and I am still "good to go".  I will say it's the mental battle that is fully exposed on a water fast. The body seems to know that this is a good thing, it's the mental that tries to talk you into giving in.  My weight loss is more rapid than expected.  1 lb daily is the norm but I'm averaging 2lbs a day. I don't have a lot to lose so I made the Doctor aware.  Thankfully he feels it would plateau out.   My weekly visit with Dr Sultani went quite well.  Testing again today with my KetoMojo, I am still in optimal ketosis and my blood sugar is in a a good range.  So we continue......... 

I am researching recipes books.  I will need to become my own chef to stay with this very clean eating.  I will say I am impressed with the variety of dishes at my disposal.  Vegetables are healing and most of us do not eat enough of them, ofcourse this program calls for a full vegan diet - no sugar, no oil, no salt (SOS), their studies have shown them unhealthy but also all three tend to create cravings for more and as most of us know, sugar also feeds all kinds of diseases, including cancer. Regular table salt can cause high blood pressure in those that are sensitive. Vegetable oil, canola oil, Safflower oil, Corn oil, hydrogenated oil to name a few are polyunsaturated, refined, bleached and deodorized and considered bad oils. Most the people that come here to fast for health and weight loss are unaware of healthy oils, healthy salts or healthy sugar alternatives. So those that are fasting to lose weight, continuing on sugar, table salt and unhealthy oils - well it makes it harder to say no to seconds and thirds. 

My finding thus far is I do not eat enough veggies, not near enough! I use Redmonds salt or Himalayan salt when at home, some of my favorite oils are cold pressed avocado oil, cold pressed virgin olive oil, butter/ghee, coconut oil for baking. My favorite natural sweetener is Stevia - liquid form by Kal.  I will discuss these healthier options with my doctor and if there are any reasons for caution for continuing.  If it all falls back on potential weight gain -  then it won't be an issue, if he explains to me how it may fuel cancer - then more research to dive into.  Well enough on the physical..... on to the spiritual.

God brought me this Scripture today....
Then He is gracious to him, and says, Deliver him from going down to the pit; I have found a ransom; his flesh shall be young like a child's; he shall return to the days of his youth. Job 33:24,25
Daily I must stay in communication with my Companion for He is my Compass.  I trust Him to lead me in to insight and clarity over my situation. Daily I ask for Him to speak to me.  I long for an extended talk with my Savior.  He knows everything about me from beginning to end.  Todays scripture is timely - I have been learning how water fasting regenerates the body, all of its cells from skin to all major subtypes in the body.  Renewing skin and cleansing the body of disease.  Jesus says that He took my place on the cross and restoration is coming to my flesh and I will be restored to my youth.  Well I'll say "I receive that promise as a daughter of the KING, a child of the Most High.  Satan is defeated and JESUS IS LORD OF MY LIFE! I WILL LIVE "WELL" INTO MY 90's."  This word from God is my promise on that. 

Good night my friends!

Into the desert
 
Slept well last night. We fell asleep at 6pm, both catching up with this new time zone to wake at 4am.  So grateful we are on the same sleep schedule.  I had my  appointment this morning, with Dr. S., he was amazing.  Very attentive and thorough, listened to all I had to say and felt I was both healthy enough and prepared to begin Day one of my water fast.  So January 10th by 4 o'clock today will mark my first 24 hours water only! Rita has the same Dr and received the same report, so away we go into the desert! 
 
 We did go for a nice scenic walk while we still have the energy – the area is so quaint and inviting.  They have a commerce village close by, the grocery store is all organic with tons of fruits and veggies.  We walked the neighborhoods and found that most houses had lemon trees. We were granted permission to pick a few!  Almost all the homes have some type of front yard garden landscapes. It was a brisk walk and was certainly enjoyed.  
 
We spent most of the day in our room, topped off at 120oz of water by 6pm,  no signs of hunger just moments of subtle sadness that I will not be enjoying the taste of food for sometime. I have done 9 day water fast at home, found the 4-5-6thday to be the most trying, so it is good to have an idea of what is in store. 
 
Ritas friends called and prayed over us, it was received in our spirits for sure. We watched a movie and found ourselves falling asleep at 730pm. 
 
Jesus I thank you for bringing me to and walking me through this journey, You are all I need and I look forward to getting to know You on a still deeper level of Glory and truth of who You are and who I am in YOU.  Help me to be all You’ve called me to be for such a time a this. In Your most Holy name Jesus, Amen.

walk by Faith not by sight 1-9-22 Sunday
I wake at 4am to catch my 610am flight to Dallas. I packed the days before as carefully as possible to fit clothes and necessities for a 30-45 day stay into carry ons, yes you heard right no checked luggage.  I will be on three flights before arriving in Santa Rosa, Ca and I don’t want the chance of losing my luggage.  Besides, if I forgot anything I can always order online. I shipped a box of books, my precious cargo to arrive Thursday – made the mistake of shipping my Bible, I do have the app on my phone but nothing to me is better than turning the pages tangibly.  
 
Driving to the airport I am a little apprehensive, but God has made this way for me and He will cancel my flights if I am not to go.  I do my best to acknowledge Him in all of my ways, my peace is disturbed if I have stepped out of His will.  This trip is more of a resounding whisper….. “walk by Faith not by sight”.   I prayed and asked for agreement that my short layovers would still give me ample time.  Leaving Texarkana Airport is the most stress-less way to embark on a 6 hour air journey. Arriving in DFW with 40 minutes to my next flight – with Gods guidance I made the right decision to follow my instincts when my gate # wasn’t evident in the directions, to many words to explain that predicament, but GOD guided me right to it.  Boarded minutes after arriving, so now to Arizona! Arriving in Phoenix I have 30 minutes to make my next flight, seated toward the front of the plane and also finding that my new gate assignment is closer to my departure gate, so I make it in plenty of time – arrive and board within minutes. Here’s to no wasted time! Now I am off to Santa Rosa, California! A young man, Adam switches seats with an older couple so He sits by me… about 30 minutes into the flight we strike up a conversation.  We were so likeminded that we talked the remaining duration of the flight.  I am sure others got an earful but must not have minded because no one called the authorities on us…. :) Arrived in Santa Rosa, exiting the plane on the ground – it was so nice to so abruptly inhale and embrace the fresh air and sunshine, extremely refreshing! Small and quaint airport, very much like Texarkana.  Arrived to a waiting James Taylor  not “the James Taylor ofcourse” to transport me to TrueNorth, very kind man and made my day trip end perfectly.  All in all no stress, watched a good movie, followed by great conversation to arrive at the facility at 1230pm.  
 
Upon arrival they promptly did a screening to make sure I was “well” then a bit of lunch.  This is a vegan menu and it was scrumptious!  Rita, my sweet friend and fellow companion on this healing naturally journey arrived shortly after. We previously decided to share a room, which made us be able to come in January and not have to wait until August.  We are birds of a feather!  We have to quaranteen for 7 days, so its nice to have her – it would be lonely all by my self.  We share a three bedroom apartment with two other guests, one is here for weight loss and another with severe autoimmune disease, arthritis and excema.  You have the choice of cold, hot and luke warm water, nice huh?  My appointment with the head physician is at 9am.  I did no research on the doctors and let God guide me to who I am supposed to see.  
 
So here I am…… praising, asking and trusting my Great Physician to lead me into all truth and manifested healing during this fasting journey, take me to the desert Lord – I need all demonic strongholds and weakholds  uncovered, a journey into Your truth – deeper and deeper into glory to glory in Jesus name. Amen. 

Hello & Welcome! I am JuliAna Moreland a faith filled woman of God, sister, wife, mother, grandmother, friend and a breast cancer thriver!  I’m originally from South East Texas but now reside in North East Arkansas with my husband of 31 years! 
 
I'm creating this blog to remind myself of all I have experienced and overcome in Christ Jesus and also to share my journey from the day of diagnosis to present. This is a personal page, not professional by any sense of the word.  I will point you in the direction of the many professionals that advised me along the way and share things I’ve done myself but this is in no way telling you to do the same.  You must make your own decisions and if some things I post do not feel right to you, follow your instinct as I have mine.  
 
 I am also writing this blog to help become more organized. I am all over the place most of the time, I have not journaled much at all - knowing it is necessary, so this yes is my commitment to that as well.   Being diagnosed in 2016 with breast cancer I've compiled almost 4 years of insight, both researched knowledge and common sense. I have shared this information orally, by text, social media post, but never organized. So this is my attempt to simplify by organizing my thoughts here. I will not be perfect, but will do my best to avoid bad grammar and overuse of punctuation – but the freedom to roll with it, will be my catalyst.  
 
It is my journey through love, life, health and happiness. I will explore childhood events, studying my marriage, raising sons, loving my daughter-in-love, being an "Ana to remember" to my precious grand babies! I am also the youngest of 4 sisters with much experience caring for a mother with manic depression, and whatever else I have the unction to write about. Most of all it will be flooded with my faith in my Lord Jesus Christ. He will be "all up in it."  
 
Again, this blog is personal and in no way should it be deemed professional. 
I AM NOT A MEDICAL PHYSICIAN, NATURAL PATH, HOMEOPATH, DIETICIAN, NOR THERAPIST.  I will post favored products, books, articles, clinics, and advisors along the way, but it will be up to the reader to dig in deeper when necessary.  I can’t say this more clearly than to say "I'm doing me, but you have to do you."  

They call me healed of the Lord and I am still on a healing journey to wholeness. 

I will pray for you - That I Can DO!!  

As always,
ilean, He leads
 
JuliAna