in Him i abide

I have been silent for many days..... needed the time to embrace rest and spend time with Him. I have learned to post when He leads me or it becomes expected or almost generated.  So I will post as He orders.
I am now on day 14 of my water only fast. Sleeping is pretty much interrupted, which is normal for fasters.  But no matter how choppy it is, I always wake up rested and ready to go.  I do have to keep my water intake up and that gets hard because water although it quenches, you begin to actually taste it and it gets a bit undesirable.  But it is imperative to force yourself to drink at the least 48 oz and at the most 120oz.  But closest to 120oz is truly best.  I hit 96oz pretty consistently unless I have a massage then I increase to 120oz.  the massage releases toxins and if you do not drink the max you will feel nauseas.   My energy level through out has stayed at a 7-8 and I have even been able to take daily walks.  They do not advise it but being the rebel that I am, I do.  I know I need it for sanity and health.  I have had no issue with weakness or energy.  They call me a professional faster and are amazed at how well I've adapted.  The encouragement is greatly appreciated.  It has been 14 days and we will begin re-feeding tomorrow.  It will begin with green juice -zucchini, cucumber, celery, spinach and a splash of apple. I will get four juices tomorrow to be each drank over 45 minutes with one more Monday morning,  I will then begin raw foods.  We are also not supposed to bathe for fear of passing out from the hot water, so they advise to sponge bathe.  Again, I am a rebel on that as well.... I sit in the shower and grab the hand held shower head and let it rain over my body.   The shower has become my prayer closet.  I pray in the spirit for some time and receive such comfort from my Savior.  It is my quiet time, and I must have that.  I have had no issue with any repercussions, so I have continued.

 I go to the courtyard on warm sunny days and enjoy visiting with fellow fasters.  God has scheduled some divine appointments - so far one dealing with a rare form of cancer, I spoke into him the words God gave me, one that "tried" to talk me out of my faith and into His, one that bore his soul and is now looking into Rhema Bible College, and one that is of a questionable religion, she listened to my healing journey of faith and was completely dumbfounded by my rock solid stance.  It was a tender moment.  

Here in California I find many live in fear of this "c" thing.  It has such a stronghold that the masks are strictly enforced for fear of being shutdown.   This causes some not to socialize much. But God, He shows me the ones He's placed on my path and I share my faith in however it manifests and He does the rest.  It's a beautiful thing, Gods sovereignty. 

Deuteronomy 11:18 “So commit yourselves wholeheartedly to these words of mine. Tie them to your hands and wear them on your forehead as reminders. 19 Teach them to your children. Talk about them when you are at home and when you are on the road, when you are going to bed and when you are getting up. 20 Write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates, 21 so that as long as the sky remains above the earth, you and your children may flourish in the land the Lord swore to give your ancestors.​

​Commit with your WHOLE HEART, if you want the full rewards God has planned for you.  I want a long life, countless blessings on my children, grandchildren, greats, great-greats, to a thousand generations.  But it begins with knowing Him, richly, intimately, to live in and honor His presence, allowing Him to be with you wherever you go.  You may think this is too much....well maybe for some...but for me it is my dream. I want to be so close to God that when I pass on when I've "lived well into my 90's" I just want to step right over into the deepest level of Glory - a familiar Glory.  My hope is that He will bless me with visions of that Glory this side of heaven. I believe the only way to attain that level of intimacy is giving Him all I have now.

 Ive learned from this abstinence of food, that His word is enough to sustain me.  So as I dine with Him, He feeds me with His word, His love, His promises, I could go on and on and I feed Him with my praises, thankfulness, adoration, sacrifices, my trust. This brings Him fullness of Joy, I believe it fills His belly to see His children reverencing Him, making time for Him in their day. He loves for His children to trust Him no matter the circumstance, what we feel or see - we have to trust Him.  Again we must know His promises to trust like this, there are thousands of them in His word, but it is up to us to pull them out and feast on them so they are within us.  Jesus - the manifested word of God can never be taken from us.  

In His presence I abide.